I wake up in the mornings not knowing who I am. I keep photos in my pocket as reminders of who people are. I even have gone as far as tattoo important clues to my identity all over my body. Like I said, when I wake up tomorrow morning, I won’t remember any of it. I will however have the photos and tattoos.
If you think that’s hard, try to remember your timeline moving backwards. Instead of learning as you go, you’re learning in reverse as you fall more and more into the sore spots of your memory. That’s what I have to deal with every day. It’s not easy. My life could have greater meaning, but how far can I get if I don’t remember from one day to the next who I am or who did me wrong?
Which brings me to my dilemma. Not only do I have to keep track of those who I’ve contacted, but I also have to maintain a system to keep me grounded. It’s a tough system but it works. I leave clues for myself all over my hotel room so when I wake up I can jumpstart the learning process again. The system covers everything. The dilemma is me not knowing who to trust. I have to write it down. Even the hotel manager of the room I’m staying has tried a few times to scam me. I caught him. From what I can tell, he’s a good guy though. He once asked if I could blame him for trying. I don’t blame him.
My only friend Teddy calls me Lenny, but that’s not my real name. Everyone thinks that if someone knows his or her own name it makes life easier. Not for me. I know my real name. It’s not Lenny. I’m still stumbling trying to figure me out.
I’ve learned something about myself recently. I’ve learned I don’t like people who say things because of what others expect. I’m fine with that. I have tattoos to prove what people do is the opposite of what they say. What I find disturbing is finding someone who is sincere but not remembering the person the next day. Do you know how hard it is to find someone honest only to forget about them after falling asleep?
I can go on by telling you about my tattoos, but the tats don’t make me who I am. I’m looking for someone. If I could define who I am, then I could say I’m the guy looking for someone. It’s the one thing that motivates me to live another day with this condition I have. It’s the only thing that compels me to move forward beyond the tall, thick walls within my mind.
I’m Leonard (Guy Pearce) from the movie Memento, today’s Wednesday Warriors‘ highlight.
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Have you seen Memento? What did you think of the mystery created by Christopher Nolan?
Looking to God 
Not sure I’ve even heard of this film, but it sounds pretty interesting the way you present it, Jack.
Haven’t seen it yet. one of the few Nolan films I’ve missed.
Great movie and lots of surprises. Guy Pearce is so great in the role that I can’t say enough how great a job he does conveying the lost sheep part. Wonderful film!
Memento is awesome! There is also an interesting video on You Tube that re-arranges the movie into chronological order!
I have the DVD and it also has the chronological version, but it’s so well hidden as an easter egg that I always need a cheat sheet to find the thing!
I need to rewatch that movie. The one part I always remember is him waking up near a toilet holding a bottle of liquor and thinking, “Huh, I don’t feel drunk.”
I totally remember that scene. It was in the bathroom. Great scene.
Totally unfamiliar with this one, but I may put it on my list of movies I should see….. Thanks !
It’s worth watching several times, as it goes beyond the boundaries of regular storytelling. Fascinating all around.
Been a long time since I saw that movie. Might have to watch it again as a refresher. I remember it being really fun and full of twists.
It’s the twists that I find most entertaining. No matter how many times I watch it, there’s something else I learn from it I didn’t already know.
Not many movies can boast that achievement. 🙂